Mon Nouveau Journal

sup y'all

2008-01-14T03:39:00Z

    Walk into the store. Say 'Hi.' Put on a shirt; make a joke. Put on an apron, ask somebody if the prep work's done. Hear a bell, help a customer. 'What size?' 'White or Wheat bread?' Repeat. Repeat. Repeat. Clean up something, walk around the store. Think about how much money you're gonna make in two weeks. Make plans to save. But you never save. Crack another joke. Close the store. Go home. Smoke. Sleep.
   6 months.
   In just 6 months I've had something rich go sour in only a few months for reasons which I had no control over. I feel used. 'Can I come over to record?' 'Can I come over to record?' 'Can I come over to record?' Redhead, it's never to hang out. It's always to record. I could have easily helped you that day you asked, but I didn't. Don't use me. Brunette, what the hell are you thinking? You can't waltz on in expecting help just 'cause you blew me a couple of times. I'm bitter and I'm finding it harder ever day to even think about a relationship right now, much less about women. You're just rubbing this in my face by showing up randomly or even calling so soon.
   I've got a job. I'm proud of my ethic, but I hate my work. I'm good at work, but I'm in the wrong place. I'm like a polar bear in the jungle. That bear owns its own habitat, but put anywhere else it's useless and pointless. This is how I feel about my current situation. What comes from my energy at work? Nothing worthwhile. I'm living a life like rent, throwing away money to keep at status quo. I'm a polar bear in the jungle, living on rent. So out of place, so entirely useless.
   As soon as I start on something, I give up. Diet to improve my health? Lasted a month. Now I'm back to cheap food and soda. Start riding a bike to work? The bike's broken, and I've got no will to return it or repair it. Stop smoking? Fat fucking chance. So much money is being wasted on something that takes so much away from me. Health, respect, honesty, creativity. Marijuana's sapping all my resources. I'm just standing here, kickin' stones around, laughing at nothing. Twiddling my thumbs.
   I do have one calling, though.
   I promised my grandma Lena that I'd move to Montana for the summer to help her with the house since she can't do all the work now that Doug's dead. I figure I will actually do this because this is somebody who isn't even technically related to me that cares much more about me than anyone in my family does now. She's given me so much, and I'll I've ever given her is an awkward hug and some awkward 'I love you's.
   Back to death. Mom's been dead 5 years now, but I've still got nothing to show for it. I feel like I lost the emotional baggage I'm supposed to carry due to her death somewhere in the airport of my youth. No memories? No sadness. I guess that's why I'm smoking so much now. To forget.
   My friends all say I'm a stoner now. But really, all I am is a low-wage worker. Smoking just comes with the gig. If you aren't smoking, you're drinking. If you aren't drinking, you're popping. If you get extra tips or a bonus, you're snorting.
If you aren't doing anything, you're bound to lose it sometime. Even with the smoking, I feel as though I'm already losing it. And I'm not about to slip into another bad habit.
   When the fuck is something going to change? I obviously can't do this myself.

here's a little update

2007-11-12T03:02:28Z

i work at Jersey Mike's Subs

i make 6.60 an hour after taxes and i work ~30 hours a week

i'm no longer a virgin (since may)

still a nerd, though

got that goin' for me

PS IM GAY

Haven't written in here in a while

2007-11-12T02:27:40Z

woop woop

might start working on a novella / long-ass short story

2007-04-09T10:29:29Z

themes? you could probably guess them if you know me

confusion, egoism, angst, drugs

the basic teenage stuff, i guess

protagonist will probably just be me with a different name because i'm uncreative as hell

i don't know what i want my conflict to be, though

i was thinking homelessness, but i'd have to have some experience with that to really write about it

can't wait until i'm 18 so i can get out of this house

i've started taking a lot of shelter in sleep. dreams are the only things that really keep me going. i'm not depressed, I just want something new out of life. I wanna be out of my house. i've been having a lot of really weird dreams. nothing scary, just weird. I lucid dreamed for about 5 minutes or so and then woke up like two weeks ago. it was gonna turn into something sexual but then I woke up for some reason.

i can feel myself getting dumber.

the show i went to last night (Natalie Portman's Shaved Head) was fuckin' awesome. danced the whole way through but my neck's hurt all day since i woke up. i woke up at 4 in the afternoon after 14 hours of sleep. good times.

also i can't wait to read toph / moogy's comments on this livejournal post! should be a blast!

badassbalto @ 2007-03-28T19:20:00

2007-03-29T02:20:56Z

the life of an artist is a process with two steps:

inspire and expire

- darby

300

2007-03-11T10:11:14Z

300.

It's like rape.

Which means it's great.

badassbalto @ 2007-03-09T23:34:00

2007-03-10T07:35:03Z

Yes We Can!

That one song on Guitar Hero II.

You know it.

I could blow a load on an open circuit board and make a better song than that.

Fuck that song.

a typical livejournal post

2007-03-09T08:15:59Z

i am so goddamn depressed

no seriously

badassbalto @ 2007-03-06T22:07:00

2007-03-07T06:07:59Z

yeah, I can do variable kickflips now!

yeahh!!!

i wish i could suck my own dick because i'm so goddamn great!

Reoccuring dreams

2007-02-25T20:32:13Z

I keep having these reoccuring dreams where I watch from afar as the sun and earth explode, and they're really bothering me.

Prototypes - Who's Gonna Sing?

2007-02-23T00:56:51Z

After listening to this song for the past two months, they've finally done it! They made a music video for it! Thank god!

Best of luck to them, they're damn talented. Isabelle Le Doussal: I'd hit it.

Best Groundation Ever

2007-02-19T05:34:42Z

Saw my brother for the first time in 4 years.

We said it was kinda funny, how the last time I saw him he was 17 and now I'm seeing him and I'm 17. He was super tired because he only slept three hours on a sidewalk in Olympia and had to walk halfway across Seattle after hitchhiking. He said it was worth it, though.

I met Annie and Kayla (Josh's girlfriend and Annie's best friend.)

Went to a show at the Dearborn House (in Seattle). I saw (and fell in love with) Cock and Swan. Met two of the three members (Ola and Johnny, Robert was busy) and bought a T-Shirt and their Noon Hum EP.

Meeting Annie was special. I won't go into details, but yeah.

This is the best definitely the best groundation ever : )

INTERVIEW by NATE DIMIT

2007-02-12T05:06:04Z

1. What's your life philosophy?
My life philosophy is to try to experience as much as possible and just live life. There's no sense in being alive if you're just going to partition yourself to one part of life.

2. Favorite book/movie/artist/album/song (pick whichever you wanna do) and why?
I really don't know... I'd probably have to say Catch 22 by Joseph Heller. It's funny and serious at the same time, like me, so... Yeah. I relate to it.

3. How did you ever end up on a0.com?
I'll answer in the form of breadcrumbs:

Ian (Voretus) playing DDR Sim on Newgrounds -> Ian playing FFR -> Ian playing StepMania -> Ian introducing me and Cailenn (Cal) to StepMania -> Me lurking on a0.com -> Me becoming a member

4. What's your current status with music-making? The last thing I heard was the collab between you and iPatch.
Right now, there's Grown Men (the Collab between iPatcH and I), and an unnamed band thing with my newfound friend Anthony Roma (aka Tony Roma.) We're really excited about it, but we need a drummer.

5. When did you get started with art/drawing and stuff? I like your work.
I've been drawing ever since I can remember. My dad gave me pens and paper to draw with when he used to take me to work with him.

badassbalto @ 2007-02-11T15:28:00

2007-02-11T23:28:49Z

i make really good mexican food

badassbalto @ 2007-02-08T20:26:00

2007-02-09T04:26:56Z

had the longest talk in the world with my dad

so that's it

no moving

no drugs

responsibility; a job

i think this just hit me so hard now and i'm going to turn around

but it's going to take a lot of work

let's get to it

oh god!!

2007-02-06T15:18:05Z

drank last night with kyton and ed...

woke up this morning? still drunk.

fuck! how will i watch RUDY in health??????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Superbowl 2010: A Post-Ablogalyptic View Of Our Nations Fattest Holiday

2007-02-05T01:10:10Z

Since 1967 our nation has enjoyed the beauty of watching dudes run until they are tackled and then sometimes scoring under the unassuming name of a "touch down." As time has gone by, the super bowl has acclimated to new technologies like the internet and blogs. But with our rapidly growing technologies and the super bowls willingness to adapt, where is the superbowl going to be in 3 years? With some super-science and advanced prediction skills, I have put together a report that shows just exactly where we will be at in the next decade:

The Super Bowl will degrade to a series of text messages brought to us by T-Mobile and Sprint

As text messaging is an efficient and cost-effective method of communication, the NFL's rulebook will change drastically. Free discussion amongst teams will be encouraged not to run around a field but to simply discuss the "rad plays" that some players will claim to make. After their claim, the opposing team will declare if the plays claimed were "wack" or not, and quickly respond. Some examples:

A legitimate and agreeable play

Player 1: Dogg I just sacked the QB

Player 2: Naw dogg you did not I tackled you before you could get to the QB

Player 3(QB): Yeah dogg then I threw the ball to the wide receiver and he ran with it

Player 1: Yeah but the wide receiver only got 7 yards before he got tackled

Player 2: That seems fair dogg, we gain 7 yards and it's 2nd down

Player 1: For real, dogg, I'm feelin' you so bad right now it's almost illegal

A play almost as illegitimate as my child:

Player 1: I snap the ball

Player 2: I slip through the line and sack the QB

Player 1: Naw foo you did not you jumped the line before the snap so that's a penalty for you

Player 2: DOGG WHY YOU GOTTA BE LIKE THAT NO I DID NOT

Player 1: IF I WEREN'T SO BUSY MAKING THIS TEXT MESSAGE RIGHT NOW YOU WOULD BE SO DEAD

Player 2: YEAH WELL THAT'S TOO BAD BECAUSE I SACKED THE QB

Player 1: REF, CREEP TO THE MIC LIKE A PHANTOM

Referee: Penalty, 10 yards!

Player 2: THIS IS BULL, DOGG, THIS IS BULL

While obviously less exciting, this version of the Super Bowl would at least make a little more sense than current football action since half of the U.S. population doesn't even know what the hell is going on during football anyways.

Super Bowl fans will be required to take their laptop to the game with them

As Wi-Fi and laptops become more and more inexpensive and noise ordinances become more common-place in large cities, the NFL will have to adapt to both. Laptops will become a requirement to enter the stadium. If a fan cheers vocally during the game, they will be booted from the stadium. Instead of vocally cheering on their favorite team, they will be required to cheer with their friends over AIM or MySpace messages.

SPRBWLFAN069: YEAHHH!!!! TOUCHDOWN!!!!!!!

iluvfutball83: I LOVE FOOTBALL TOO DUDE

sweetgurl420: who wants 2 cyber

SPRBWLFAN069: hold on dogg i gotta get my e-bone on

iluvfutball83: aight dogg make it quick

The size of the playing field will go from a 100 yard field to a small 20ft x 20ft lounge room in the center of the field

Rather than taking up massive amounts of space and costing millions, the super bowl will be much like an episode of Big Brother: a small lounge room filled with cameras will cover the 'action' of text messaging football plays while sitting down. As a sponsorship deal, Starbucks will be allowed a kiosk in the center of the room and at least one commercial during each commercial break.

Each football player will be require to maintain their blog during the game

Stats sites for the NFL will be scrapped and instead replaced by player-specific blogs maintained by the players themselves. Topics include what they ate for breakfast, cute things their pets do during the day, how hot their girlfriend/spouse is, and the various plays they've made during the game.

Example Entry:

made a touchdown today

while i made the touchdown i was thinking about what i'd say in my blog but i couldn't think of nething so here is my post i hope you like it

my cat did the cutest thing today

petunia my cat was trying to climb my drapes today but he fell down and made a cat noise. it was so cute i had to tell you guys about it

Sponsorship will be switched from beer to consumer electronics brands

Rather than Budweiser, Coca-Cola and Credit Card commercials, the average sponsor will switch to Apple, Microsoft, T-Mobile, and Starbucks. As the NFL switches from a contact sport to an AOL Chat Room, manufacturers will have to switch their advertising focus from getting drunk and spending too much money on Televisions to covering the newest iPod model, Windows Release, Cell-Phone contract, and Caramel Macchiato.

This is the end of my post-ablogalyptic view of the Super Bowl. I hope you enjoyed it.

hello annie you are reading this / plans

2007-02-01T06:56:58Z

pour annie: sup you're readin' my LJ 8)

Anyways

Annie is pretty cool, jah. Walla Walla, regardless of those who live theres worries, is going to be a blast. But I know it won't always be fun. I'll have to step up to the responsibility of adulthood. I'll have a job, I'll be on my own. But what plans do I have after Walla Walla? Well Annie, I don't think I've told you. I only plan to be in Walla Walla for a year before I head to California. But, of course, I am not subject to change; I could live there longer if you wanted or I wanted or we both wanted, but eventually I want to live with Zac and Co. in California!

Annie you're a nice gal; hopefully our meeting won't ruin the friendship we have over the web!

Here is that picture I said I would post!

PLANS:

spring break
getting there
- have money from job
- pay for bus ticket
- take bus from seattle to pasco
- get picked up in pasco
- get ride from annie to walla walla
the week
- gettin' highfy / crunk
- meetin' up with josh
- meetin' everybody
- playin' music
??getting to know my future employers??
end of spring break

moving out.
getting there
- have money saved from a job.
- pay for bus ticket.
- take bus from seattle to pasco.
- get picked up in pasco, get ride to walla walla.
initiation
- meeting up with everybody again
- figuring out living situations for the first few weeks
- get used to hippie things (smell, attitutudes, etc)
- spend a little bit travelling around town
- use money saved to buy a bike
- discuss employment with annie
living
- move into own apartment with a few other people?
- live for a while?
- start a band?
end of planned activities

Pop'n Fresh Dough!

2007-01-20T22:06:03Z

Walla Walla, WA, 99362

2007-01-18T04:22:46Z

I'm done with my family.

I need out. I am getting that sense of independence that all teenagers experience around this time.

I need to be on my own; if I leave to Walla Walla, I can go to a high school where I can take homework home and do it, while still working a day job and being independent.

This is what I need. This is what I'll get, regardless if my parents approve or not.

MEME!

2007-01-18T04:15:39Z

The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Second Level of Hell!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	Very Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	Moderate
Level 2 (Lustful)	Very High
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	Low
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	Low
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	High
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Very High
Level 7 (Violent)	Very High
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	Very High
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Low

Take the Dante's Inferno Hell Test

Meme

Grizzly Bear is the best new band of the last 3 years

2007-01-08T02:16:22Z

I can say this with A LOT of confidence.

Best new years ever

2007-01-01T23:06:17Z

Definitely the most hilarious start to a new year

badassbalto @ 2006-12-30T02:26:00

2006-12-30T10:29:25Z

end of 2006 comin' soon

same with break

when people asked me what i did on break i'm just gonna say "i definitely didn't hang out with any of my friends"

and, see, i won't be lying because it's TRUE

saw zac and sam once

they came to play the 360

why did they come over, though?

to play the 360! not to see me

yep. i'm just gonna stop trying to hang out. i'll leave it to them to decide when they want to see me.

nobody calls me so i know i'm not wanted.

only really hung out with kelly house, which, if Superhappyfunsquad knew I was doing that, would be laughed about because, you know, it's kelly house.

yep.

fuckin' A, man.

i can only say it so many times before it comes to tedium.

it's at tedium right now.

this isn't directed at you, though, Ryan. whenever you read these kind of posts, you're typically the first to be like "let's hang out!" and i appreciate that.

DJ Siridicule - Gloomy Sunday (House of Funk Rising Mix)

2006-12-30T08:25:20Z

DJ Siridicule - Gloomy Sunday (House of Funk Rising Mix)

I made this because I was bored.

Enjoy. All the loops are made by me; none are pre-made.